I spend so much of my time thinking about those who care not a tuppeny for me . I mean , I think i have wasted almost half of my life thinking out reasons as to why a certain someone does not reciprocate my overtures of friendship or just does not seem to care. When i feel nothing but disgust and blatant dislike for someone ..why does my mind keep reverting back to the "unfairnemss" of it all?
Is it some stupid , deep rooted feeling of acceptability that im yearning for ...or is it just my ego ...my hurt pride that is my focal point????
While iam wasting my life on low life such as these..Iam ignoring all those lovely people who actually care about me and what do i do?? Unload a whole lot of BS to them on how 'ill used ' iam !!!!
Why is indifference to rubbish such a difficult lesson in life????!!!!