Thursday, September 17, 2009

Life changes overnite as soon as there is a baby in the family. After the birth of my daughter , and the excitement of bringing her home there was an anticlimax in the air which would have been comical if it had not been soo depressing. There I was ..bloated like a balloon... (some VERY lucky ones lose all their excess fat as soon as they have the baby and iam excluded from the list ) tired and aching after a difficult C birth. My body apparently took exception to the epidural I was given and tried its hardest best to shut down! I had high blood pressure before the baby was born so i was on a diet with NO salt for 3 weeks. Obviously I didnt have anything to eat before the delivery and until 2 days after . No water either and it was end of April-- the hottest month of the year in Chennai. OOOh Boy!!! And as Iam athmatic I had a severe chest congestion because of the epidural which didnt go too well with my wheezing lungs.Why wasnt I surprised? Back home with the little bundle of joy(!!) and there i was changing nappies every 2nd minute ....it was poop and pee ...and pee and poop...back and forth ,back and forth!! OMG! Let us not forget the sleepless night. I dont know HOW a baby who is 5 days ols catches up with the fact that it is time for her to start driving Mommy crazy. My daughter slept thruout the day ...when you have half a dozen chores what with nursing the baby, washing her dirty nappies, and lets not forget pee and poop !!!! As soon as it was time for bed there she was wide awake ...the whole household slept and there I was with burning eyes looking despodently at my daughter while she cooed he way through the night! groaaaan!!!!To top it all I developed an audibility problem which apparently can happen to 20% of new mothers and OF COURSE i had to be one among the chosen 20%.I was exhausted ,depressed and angry with everyone .I kept bursting into tears at the slightest thing . The near permanent look on my poor husband's face was this desperate panicky expression as i could become quite voluble when in tears . Looking back now... it is kind of funny but back then .... I just wanted everything to be desperately the same again. It also did not help that I resist any kind of change vigorously. Now, 2 and a half years later , I cannot even remember what it was like before my baby girl came in to my life and i wouldnt change it for anything in the world.

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